Splitting the DNA (Day 10 of Truth)

The following Post is for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself… andthatultimately leads to happiness.

 

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Social Network. I won’t say that it is everything because even I do have a personal life apart from multiple digital screens. 😛 But it meant a lot for me once, when I was feeling alone. And so, it does sometimes now. Okay !! I’m getting bit Facebook-alcoholic, but it is a Fact.

Well the bottom line is, I love and enjoy interacting with people online. These are the guys, whom I’ve never met personally, but I would probably be interested to have a chit-chat with them for a long time. I preferably add or send friend request to those, who have similar interests like I do as this is the way you possibly could interact with strangers in the Internet. The reason for being sometimes extrovert in such place is simple. Let’s talks about from this perspective. We all are busy and stressed with our lives. Sometimes even we do really need friends (including the net buddies) to whom we could share our thoughts and we both understand each other feelings. Apart from my over 700 friends in Facebook and 300 Friends in Orkut, I still do have some good long time net buddies to whom I interact most of the times (even daily sometimes).  That’s the only reason which can’t make me to resist myself coming online. Of course, I do have a self control and balance which often makes to avoid such things during important tasks.

Some Smartass people around me always think that I am totally free (in Hindi what we call, VELLA) every time and don’t have a life apart from Social-Networking. Well, it’s their lame perception. If they don’t know about time management and productive use of such sites, then it’s not my fault to explain these cunts again and again. Honestly, I really don’t give a fuck about them.

Anyways, moving back to the topic. It was somewhere 3 years ago (to be exact, it was about November 2008). I met this girl online in Orkut. Her net name was ‘Fallen Devil’ (not interested to mention that bitch’s real name 😛 and you will get the reason too .. Don’t worry). She was a friend of my long time net friend ‘Akshay’from Mumbai, India (I named him because he’s still a good friend of mine :)). I saw her profile and found it really interesting. There were many similarities between us like – Favorite Rock Bands, Favorite Music, Favorite shows, Favorite Cartoons etc. Like I’ve said above about my way of social interacting – adding mostly my kinda guys. So therefore, I sent her a friend request and she accepted within hours. After acceptance, she personally posted on my scrapbook asking about myself. I gave her a reply ASAP and asked her the same.

And this is how our chatting started. 🙂

Within few more fast questions and answers, I further got to know about her more and so do she got to know more about me. Even some interesting things I got to know about her that she stays in NOIDA (kinda neighbor city from my city, Delhi), loves LINKIN PARK and a great fan of Mike Shinoda (just like me .. but not had a crush on him :P) and the strange part : She was just 14 (a typical school kid). Well, That was weird for me at the first moment. But yeah it got over with it, as I realized that kids these days are more advanced and even more interested to interact in social networking, than us who just came to know that such things even exist.

Well usually had conversation (I mean seriously, a hell lot of chit-chat) on many topics. Of course, everything is not perfect at all. Even we still had some dissimilarities like – I like watching Indian Comedy and Daily Soap on Television, while Teen Drama Shows are her most favorites. But still there was some respect between us despite a lil bit of. Like I used to say her, there was some similarity in our DNAs, there was some kinda understanding between us.

We used to chat for hours, share some music links and write some testimonials to each other. Maybe we were more than friends .. not BF/GF relationship shit ..  siblings I would say. And sooner, we exchanged our contact number as we were eager to talk to each other. I remember the moment she rang me up for the first time right after I gave my contact number, I got bit terrified like – what to say, how to talk and all. It was damn anxious for me and i think it was that so for her also. Now, our chat went online as well as offline. She used to call me mostly. So Lucky me !! 😛

But this ain’t a happy ending. Soon, the tables turned and it was really painful. There was something about her, which I was ignoring first but then I got sick from that shit later. Apart from being an extrovert teenage, she is a typical Brat. The problem of her was that she brags so much about herself and her vanities. Sometimes she even faked about herself a lot of times. I remember her Orkut profile where she proclaimed that she’s the biggest Linkin Park fan and even she used to ask me many times, which was really annoying. Highly obsessed with her likes but can’t avoid the criticizers. I used to ignore such bullshits from her as whatever she does holding up with that attitude, was kinda immature and would need time to grow up and learn on her own.

However as a friend, I still advised her whenever she blogs such juvenile thoughts. But nothing went through her head and even she backfired me calling me I’m talking some kinda old guy. This really proved that she even doesn’t respect to her elder’s advise. Even she apologized for her attitude in front of me. But it was useless as she never learned from her mistakes and doing such shits again and again.

It was still OK as I later, tried to avoid asking about her lifestyle and thoughts. If she pretends to be matured, then she must be out her own ass. From then onward, I hardly picked up her call and replied to her messages, to make her realize about her own actions that hurt me once. I thought it was working as it seemed to me for while. But sooner, I was proved wrong by her.

One day, I found that she had a fight with my sister on Orkut. Both were ranting each other with hate speech. I really got angry as she started the battle for no reason. She was jealous with my sister. Don’t know why she was? But her words told the whole story. It was over the limit and I was forced to jump into this verbal battle. Not for taking anyone’s side, but to stop his hullabaloo of no reason. But she never grown up from her own mistakes and her own actions has almost ended our 10 month long net friendship, in the end of August 2009. I’d told about this incident to our mutual friends, asking their opinions. They somehow favored me, but still advised me to maintain the friendship and spare her immature actions. But I didn’t change my decision. If the bitch can’t give us respect, then it’s better she get her ass out of my way.

It had passed over two years and none of us interacted to each other. But one day, a friend request notification in my Facebook Wall made me stunned that moment. It was she who came back out of nowhere. I was thinking about to block her from my account. But later I thought to accept her request as I’ve already moved one from that incident and buried the hatchet, with a hope that she also grew up from her past juvenile habits. There might be still some matching DNA left in ourselves, which might make us to talk back again. But still just in case Deja-Vu happens, I’d make sure to interacted with her not that much openly which I used to do.  However now, she’s 17, a young photography aspirant. Maybe I could expect some maturity from her.

So as soon I accepted her request, she sent me a message, “It’s really been a long time huh ??”. And in a taunting manner, I replied, “Yeah !! As if it is some kinda reunion”.

And this is how, out chat became so rough and so cold.

Even after that first (a little rough though) conversation, we’ve hardly interacted online as we both were busy in our lives. There were some limited topics like – current music choice, Grammy awards, Hollywood movies etc. which made us to talk if we are luckily online and interested to talk. However, within limited chat I thought one that we still have those similarities and still we appreciate that. But this time, I don’t want to know more and talk to her offline. I kept my privacy and she kept hers. It seemed that everything was going OK!

But seriously, such brats like her never get a life. They’ll keep on bragging about her overpriced things, which seriously I felt annoying though I don’t a damn. They all are obsessed with their materialistic lifestyle and won’t never be able to understand other’s way of living. And the day came again, when she interfered in our matters.

Again she fought in my elder sister’s blog. In the lame name of criticism, she posted a hate speech comment in response to my sister’s blog post. She was in a rage as her ranted words told everything about her jealously. As a payback, my sister replied her hate mail. If she can raise a weapon and declare a war, then my sister has a right to drop a nuke on her ass to stop this bullshit. Even I sent her message in Facebook asking for an explanation of her actions. But seriously, she became a cunt. She blamed my sister for not taking her comments in a sporting way. Again her ranting words tells the same ole story that she can’t stand with other even if she’s dealing with the sister of her true friend. But like I’d said in the beginning, the bitch never grown up from her mistakes. What else can I say ? The End is here, It’s Crystal Clear.

Reinventing memories of my past, I remember when everything was really good between us. We used to have fun when we were good friends. Something memorable moments probably we both have shared with each other. But I soon realized that virtual relationships hardly remains for real. It doesn’t stays long. And it is all due her attitude which forced to bring our longtime friendship to such an end that we would never gonna meet together again. She thinks that she knows everything. But bitch please!! She really didn’t knew a shit of our friendship.

Now all I wanna say something in the end, with these few Lines.

Again her
Vanity raised
Again her
Ego retained,
Again her
Agony ignited
Again her
Fakeness proclaimed.
Enough with
all these shits of
Deja-Vu occurred
with that familiar
taste of pain,
Burying those
past memories which
now I regret
to even happen,
our DNA of friendship
has been splitted
forever in vain.

Thanks for my memories, Bitch !!

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The above Post was for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself…

The Loser (Day 9 of Truth)

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This day post is now making me emotional, as the topic for this day really means me a lot. It’s kinda just … What can I say? .. I am speechless. But still I’ve to move on and complete this day, like those 8 days.

Anyways, there are some individuals who really are very important even than your own personal life. You’ve wished something, they’ve fulfilled all of them. You’ve demanded for some space and privacy, they’ve provided. Even you’ve ask for some help and support, they were there for you. These are none other than your beloved parents, who really care about you no matter what you are. These are those real people in your life, who have been your true idols and inspirations for a very big time and even forever. As a matter of fact, it is their dedication and motivation that really made what you right now. If you honestly respect them a lot, then undoubtedly, these are the ones whom you never let them go.

But Life has its own rules and conditions. Somebody has to go and somebody has to lose. It’s the undeniable and unfortunate truth. This is where the tables turned. You can’t believe what just happened wrong, as everything seemed so far so good. Even I still feel bad, in case I remember that moment for a while. Despite of all my fortunes and triumphs, I lost those beloved ones at the uncertain and underdeveloped teenage life. I felt something miserable, something pathetic as if the God was against me. Many random voices in my head kept asking me a lot of questions, which are yet to be answered. That’s my grief. Nothing to say more!

It’s really been a long time since that demise. Few true closed people of mine understood me a lot and I’m happy with them. However, there are plenty of douchebags I’ve encountered, who percept that with this I’m trying to get sympathy and attention. And seriously, I really don’t fuck about them, because these assholes really don’t know about me and my life, even after stalking and spying me possibly they could. Anyways, it’s their own lame and filthy perception. And even, I don’t want to be some moral police to tell them everything again and again.

Moreover, I’ve some other plans and milestones to achieve. Life and people (including those jerks) had really teach me a lot, and still I have a long way to go. Being optimist, I would say those missed ones still somewhere in me. I could feel them whenever I want. Maybe I’ve become somewhat like them.

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The ‘B-ves’ of My Life (Day 8 Of Truth)

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In the World of Ying-Yang, if you have some odds in favor then definitely there would be some odds against you as well. Taking an example of Blood Groups, an A never matches with a B. And there’s the same kind of situation with my Life as well. Myself (A) never, ever gonna deal with them (B’s). Since my Blood Group is ‘A positive’ (A+ve), so I call them ‘B negatives’ (B-ve).

Totally Opposite!! 😛

Confused? I think you would be. But the following types of people with whom I’ve met so far, have made my Life annoying and miserable enough to categorize them like this.

1. BULLIES with Power

That’s an obvious nightmare for the Good Boys when they have to encounter these Chauvinist Bad Boys, mostly in School days. My Childhood was Simple, Peaceful, Study-Focused and away from Fist Fights. It’s a good thing for your teachers and parents, but not for the Bullies. They just hate you for no reasons. I have been imitated by them a lot. Even sometimes I was humiliated as well in Class by them. It’s not so easy to fight back for your own dignity at that time. First of all, they all come together to tease you and so, you’re all alone. Secondly, they’ll take you down easily even if you try to fight back, as they are stronger than you. That’s why they are Bullies, obsessed with Power and Strength. And lastly, you always remember the morals that your teachers and parents taught. Nobody wants to get their hands dirty.

I’ve lost a lot of times. But when the threshold of tolerance and patience gets over the limit, I’ve settled the score in a duel, for which I regretted a lot afterward as I never wanted to be like them. But sometimes, you have to do for getting your respect back.

Anyways, now when I look them after 5-6 years, they don’t seem like what they used to appear when I was kid. Not Bullies anymore, but not even my Friends. 😛

However, Bullies keep changing, but they will always come in your Life. Some of my College Seniors are just like them. Sometimes, they just keep trying to tease me on my appearances. But I don’t mess with them as I’m now matured and experienced of tolerating this thing. This Seniority SHIT would even be present during my Job days as well.

2. BORES without Life

Some people really need to have a Life as they stalk on others’ Life for every GOD DAMN moment. It’s kinda trespassing someone’s privacy. The same things have been experienced by me. I’ve encountered a lot of people who either kept asking questions about me and my Life or started giving me useless suggestions as if they know me well. I’m not saying that, they don’t have right to advice me, but please stop giving useless advices when they even don’t know the circumstances of my situations. It’s intolerable and irritating.

However, I have few good friends to whom I’ve told almost about myself, my ambitions and even shared some of my grieves. But don’t and never discuss with many as people hardly understand you. They would get sympathize at that time, but in the end they all forget and treat you like normal. Even I don’t need any sympathy and publicity for myself. As I’d rather get treated equally than being hurt.

Plus, some people keep on criticizing me for being a Facebook alcoholic. They think I’m wasting my Time on there. But the fact they don’t know that though I’m kinda introvert in reality, but highly extrovert in Social Networking Sites. I mean, who doesn’t? People would like to get rid of their boring life and have fun in Facebook. Even I like to interact with my Net Friends and so, I have a Social Life.

But still these morons presume such shitty perceptions that used to piss me off. However, now I really don’t care as they keep boring me with those same ole responses.

3. BASTARDS with Ego

Now-a-days, everybody has its own Ego. And the moment gets when the Ego clashes out of nowhere. Personally, I can’t stand with such people who have a lot of ego and pride for their own so-called specialty. It’s good that they have such specialty in themselves, but that doesn’t means that they have right to flaunt everywhere especially to them who don’t have any. Still I bear their rants most of times. But when the breaking point of my patience and tolerance has reaches, I bashed in a battle for the sake of my dignity and respect.

They just tried to take me down, proving me wrong as well and therefore, proving that they are the best while I’m wrong. Bastards! 😛

4. BITCHES with Everything!

These days, people are so multi-tasking. Seriously man! I won’t be able to find out how they all do that. But since some of them get just because though comforts and being fortunate, I sometimes get jealous with them.

I’m a college guy and I’ve seen plenty of guys around me who are phenomenal apart from their academic scores. Obviously, they are exceptional and fortunate to get the success soon. It’s their headache to mingle with various tasks, which they do remarkably well.

Overall, I still respect these ‘Supernaturals’ as token of inspiration. But Honestly, I’m not like them. Since I’ve got a BIG competition in my college, I’ve been defeated a lot and I admit it though I gave my 100%. But my point of view would be considered as Lame Excuses as My people don’t understand me at all. They’ll still compare their (the multi-task performers’) triumphs with my failures and even expect me to like them. That really makes me SICK as in spite of getting some support and a little appreciation of my efforts, I get taunts of not being extra-ordinary.

I’m not like them and never want to be like them. If I’m trying to pretend to be like them, then I’ll definitely lose my own identity. Plus, the thing I believe, as someone told me once that “If you’re trying everything, then you would not be Master of Anything. But if you’re trying something, then you’re definitely the Master of that Thing.” I still makes me amazed why people do 10 things even if they know they hardly 1-2 would be useful in their future.  Most of my College Toppers and even some of my Tech-minded Seniors would still try to think for MBA. Even in the vast Technical Lines, people would mug 10-20 different topics like nuts. Maybe just to prove the world that they are super-intelligent and smart.

Actually, this is where our Education System lacks. We are taught 10-20 different topics and sometimes even useless subjects out of our interests. Plus, you get a crappy out of the format Question Papers in the Examinations, which would make you mad. Of course, the Engineering Life in College gonna SUCK !! Those Hard-ass Supernatural bitches would mug up and achieve higher grades in Examinations. And Dumb-asses like me, having interests on certain topics would be screwed and be ranted with humiliation for whole Life. And therefore with or without any intentions, they have made my Life miserable.

Sometimes I get so depressed from such dilemma for a long time. But still I wake up in the morning in an optimistic  hope that things would be change. But Changes never come on their own, they are being brought. If these B-ves of my Life quit annoying the A+ves like me, then we’ll definitely gonna have a better place to Live. Hopefully, that day comes sooner. 🙂

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The above Post was for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself…

The Other Guys (Day 7 Of Truth)

 

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We all have encountered many people of various classes and castes in our Life. But there is an independent category of few people in your life who are always there for a back. They are who to whom you’re bit dependent with, inspite of being self-dependent. These are some people in your life who would always praise and sometimes criticize you for good. And even moving along with them you forget about the current world and eventually, making your life worth living. I’ve encountered many persons of all ages, so far in my life. But only few of them would stand for you. Forever.

 

Well, It all begins with since I was a Kid. I was kinda notorious in my school days. I used to do a lot of pranks with my school friends and teachers. Due to my deeds, Teachers scolded me, punished me and even slapped me. But still some of them treated me like a good lad and hardly got punished from them. I guess they were totally responsible in my Foundation as they brought the hell out of my Talent from me and even encouraged me. I remember those Parents Teacher Meeting (P.T.M) days where all Teachers always complain my Parents for being naughty and talkative in class, even though I was among the Toppers. But only few Teachers used to highlight more into my Dedication in Academics and my interests in Extra-Curricular Activities, overshadowing all my notoriousness in class, which obviously made my Parents proud. I guess they know better how to handle kids. Moreover, though my Dad was very strict, but he even becomes casual and cool for a while. He never forgot every single P.T.M of our school as he always inspected from me its date and time. But inspite of getting such shitty remarks about me, he used to chill during every P.T.M and never scolded me. But like a parent, he always tried to understand me and also praised my Talents as well. And therefore, I hardly got punishment from him. Lucky me ! 😛

 

Even friends are to be considered among those who made your life worth living enough. I didn’t mean by a long list of Facebook friends anyway. 😛 There are some person (very few in number though) hanging around you with them, I guess we always have the most possible FUN and good time for a while and get rid from all those tensions and boredom. These are the Most Effective Tranquilizers of your Fast Life. Of course, you’re Calm and Tension Free, hanging around with them. XD .. Not only Stress-Busters, they are also good Counselors as well. You could share something with them about you, your passion, your likes n’ dislikes and even your grief. I’ve never counted how many friends do I really have in my Life. The things which I sense from my friends – Love, Understanding, Care, Respect, Trust, Kindness, Helpful, Humanity, are uncountable. Making Friends is easy, but keeping your Friendship forever – Well that’s something difficult task but not that impossible.

 

And above all, It’s my Elder Sister. She is the one who. Her love and sometimes anger, truly shows the care for me. I won’t brag too much about her here. But ya !! I would like to add that I’m very very very DAMN proud to have such a nice Sister. She’s half-parent and half- friend for me. Unquestionably and Undoubtedly She’s sweet, caring, cute, adorable, bit arrogant sometimes :P, but still she’s lovable. That’s what True Blood Relations you see.

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With a good note, I would conclude that everybody has atleast someone who would be caring for you and making your hard-knocking life worth living like heaven. It’s totally BULLSHIT that people brag the shit in Social-Networking Sites that they don’t have anyone who has made their life worth living. I’ve seen some Popular Emo phrases of being lonely, broken, atheist and sadistic every time, they might be cool but are truly lame. I guess it’s our shitty lame attitude that live with such lines and think the World is Cruel as always. But Guess what !! It ain’t cruel enough. God has sent someone like you, who would understand and be with you for a very long time. It’s just that you’ve to discover that tiny prick small leaf from the infinite grassland on your own. Even I’m bit loner and self-dependent, but still have some good people at back as I know these people know what you are and would try to make you what you wanted more.

 

So Get your lazy ass for a while from Social Network. Even I’ve over 300+ friends in Facebook. But still have couple of Good people around me, giving me a better reason to life. Infact, I’ve made myself to make others’ life DAMN living enough. Feel Hope yourself to be that Great as well.

 

Well I’ve a Life worth living. What about yours’ huh ??

 

 

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The above Post was for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself…

Never Leave Your Passion Alone in Darkness (Day 6 of Truth)

The following Post is for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself… and that ultimately leads to happiness.

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When a very bit of small Hobby you are fond of, which you would definitely like to do most of time whenever you get some time. Exploring your vivid imaginations. It eventually becomes your Passion which you always would do and never like to leave. But unfortunately, being busy and indulging in other important tasks modern life, You can’t give enough time for your Passion and therefore, you lose it somewhere.

Same happened with me. Like I’ve said, I was much passionate towards Arts during my childhood days, doesn’t means that I’m not so right now .. I’m still so but not that much. I was totally inspired with many forms of Artworks which usually our Art Teacher used to give us Bi-weekly. Some used to do it like a Burden as if they are being forced to complete it. Whereas for me, It was yet another Mystery to be solved, yet another Mountain to be climbed,  yet another World to be explored and eventually yet  another Goal to be achieved. Keep that attitude, I didn’t feel that I was doing just to complete my Homework ASAP, Impressing my Art Teacher and getting Good Grades in Drawing. It was becoming a Fun to be enjoyed. That particular subject was becoming a Hobby.

And this is how, I just getting more and more into Drawing. It’s not that I used to focus only in that, I was even good in other subjects as well. Among the Toppers you could say. 😛 Still, I’ve made a BALANCE between Drawing and other Academic Subjects those days. I used to refer TV Art shows Like – Art Attack and M.A.D.for getting more knowledge on other forms of Art. I’ve participated in many Inter-School Competitions, in some of them I’ve won as well. Not just my family and friends, My School Teachers used to appreciate and encouraged me all for that. Among them, My Mom was the one who Encouraged me a lot sparing some of my Bad Habits and Naughtiness. I was so much addicted with it that I even used to draw my Sister’s Drawing Homework a lot. Whether it was any Art or any Book Diagram,I used to do it quietly and in return, she didn’t tells Dad how much I played Video Games or Cricket with friends today. 😛 Though I was not that much pioneered in Arts, but ya I was learning faster and getting more better. 😉

With such improvements and achievements in my Drawing, I’ve realized afterwards, that this Hobby is now growing up into a Passion. I was even day-dreaming that I could do it like a professional Artist. But like I’ve said as soon as you Grow-up, your priorities change. Same happened with me which I still regret. Well after clearing my Metric (10th Std. Board) Exams, I’ve was more passionate towards Science Field especially in Computer Science. Being A Science Non-Medical Student, I devoted my most time into Learning Theoretical and Practical Concepts, Understanding Languages and even after Studying Harder n’ Harder for my Engineering Entrance Exams (IIT-JEE, AIEEE and DCE-CEE). As I was indulging myself more into Academics, My Career Priority of being an Engineer lied above of Being an Artist. With this, I’ve lost all my Excellent Skills in Arts as I hardly practiced for it. It seemed as if the Soul and Passion for becoming an Artist died those days.

Yet another Grief that I’m sharing. Not a Big One, but still painful.But Looking some of my Batch-mates and some Seniors of my College, who are seriously DAMN inspiring and totally Pioneered in Arts. Looking them and then looking me, I’ve learned a Lesson that Neither Leave Your Passion Alone Nor Let it Die inside You, cause in the end It hurts so Bad.

So learning through all these experiences, I’ve started bringing up my Talent back again. Again Leaning , Exploring, and Practicing. I’ve participated and also won in many Art Competitions organised in our and others College Fests. I usually make Drawings with Chalk in our Classroom Board, whenever there’s some Free Period. Plus, I’ve started making some Sketching in my College Notes during Boring Lectures as well. 😛 Moreover, I am also in College Fine Arts Team, who make Banners and Posters for our College Fests. Many of the Artworks that I’ve published so far here in my Blog, they all have been made during my recent College Days.

Well, It was my unfortunate that I left my Talent for a while and paid it costly. But no regrets now at all. I can’t change my Past, but could endure my Present and Future. Still I’m passionate of Art and even placed it in my Career Priority List. I’ve started making a Balance between my college Studies and my Passions. Though I’m lost all my Ole School Drawing Skills, Still I’m learning and exploring more into it as sometimes it feels so Good to learn and grow up like a Kid again. 8)

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All That I Want (Day 5 Of Truth)

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Everybody has certain ambitions and desires to become what they want. They keep on working hard for making their wish true. Even I have certain list of things that I want to be and hopefully I would become lately.

Here they are :-

1. Computer Programmer

Primarily and also on the basis of my major field of interest. I like to Coding a lot in certain Programming Languages (but most frequently in C/C++, as it reminds my ole school days). Since I’ve laid interest on this field, I just get with it day and night, focusing on certain concepts, applying some algorithms and solving’em with some presence of mind. It truly requires some Coding Skills and an approaching view to solve any kind of problem. It even becomes mind-boggling and damn irritating when get stuck in the middle with any problem, trying to figure out the bug (or error), for hours, days or even Weeks. But still, I like this. 😉

Ya indeed, I would like to go on further, learn certain new languages, new algorithms and even new compliers, to learn something NEW and getting updated with latest technology in the market. I am on my way. Moreover, It would be for my living in future.

 

2. Artist

I was truly passionate about Drawing before entering into Programming, since childhood. Drawn a lot of art creations not only these days, but also in the past School days. I really love sketching a lot and like to draw sketches of posters, cartoons and many still objects nearby.  But not so good in Painting, as I’ve lost those painting skills when I left my paint brush during my High School Days. But still, I would really like to lay emphasis on that piece of work as well. Moreover, I’m very glad to some of my college seniors and some of blog-mates who are indeed The Masters in Fine Arts, and from whom you’ll get to learn something NEW every time.

Well, Y’all have even seen all my creations so far in my blog and appreciated many of them as well. It would be increasing more and more in future with some expertise and perfection. Hopefully, I would become like Professional Artists in future.

 

3. Computer Animator and Gaming

Well though it’s a mixture of the above two, but still describing it on another category. It may be more biased to Programming, but an Artistic Vision is also required whenever you’re a creating some character. I’ve just made a simple Snake Game in C/C++ Language back in December last year. Though it was already made by many brilliant programmers across the World, even in more better way and also, C/C++ Games are now outdated these days. But my purpose of making this Game was to utilize all the coding skills and artistic approach learnt so far. I would surely like to improve upon by learning some New Programming Languages like – JAVA, C#, .NET, PHP and also some Game Source Engines like Allegro and OpenGL.

Since I’m exploring and updating myself in both – Programming and Arts,  I am even going along with Computer Animation and Gaming as well.

 

4. Mimicry Artist and Radio Jockey

Just for FUN though , but seems like It has now become something that I would like to do more and more. Mimicry / Voice Impersonating over 50 artists and certain 100 Cartoon characters. I’ve performed that thing quite lot, in front of my friends, class-mates and even a crowd of around 1000 during my College Freshers Party. From limited people to a Mob, This n00b has raised HELL in the town. 😛

But I’m not a regular performer, as obviously It not only would affect my voice, but also there won’t be something NEW to show to the people, and eventually, making my act completely BORING. So Therefore, I just take break for a while, writing some new scripts to entertain people. That’s my way, To Be Happy and Making Others Happy. 😉

Well after recognizing my talent very well, some good friends of mine recommended to try for Radio Jockey (RJ) as profession. Even I’ve tried my level best to become a RJ in my College Radio Channel – Radio NSIT, but failed to get selection. No Regrets at all. But ya !! I would like to be a RJ in some other Radio Station when I really push myself forward more in this talent and acquire more confidence to be good enough for a RJ.

 

5. Photographer

It used to be my Time-Pass Hobby in earlier days.  After clicking many pictures either with Mobile Camera, or Digital Camera, of whatever I see nearby, I’ve discovered that I’m doing that free-time work quite well.  Even some people liked my pictures and also appreciated the fact that I’m Good in Photography. So whenever I get time for a while, I just click some nice pictures of my surroundings many time until I am satisfied.

But I know, not only use of Professional Photography Cameras,  but also a Photogenic Vision is also required to become an Expert in this particular field. Hopefully, this piece of Time-Pass Hobby might become a Big-Time Profession in future. You just never know. 😉

 

6. Poet

Basically, I like to express my feelings carved in some nice words. Like Arts, even Poetry is my childhood passion.  I used to pen down my thoughts in a poem with some rhymes as well. Now, Even trying to use some phrases, metaphors and even some other forms of Poetries like – Haikus (which I’ve done all this February 8)), would make my poetry even more expressive and graceful.

After blogging for around 9 months, I’ve got to see many Professional Poet Bloggers some, from whom you’ll get to learn more and more. They eventually become yourMentorin this field as their expertise and experience means a lot to us.

 

There are more brilliant people in my above field of interests mentioned so far. I’m glad to such people in my Life. Some of them are very helpful, who would let others’ to and promote their particular field of interest. While some of them are Egoistic, who won’t help anyone to grow as they like to be sole surviving master of their field and probably would take out those who don’t match with their so-called level. But somehow, you get to learn something them.

 

However, above from all those desires which I’ve discussed so far. Before I become a Computer Programmer, an Artist, a Computer Animator, a RJ , I would like to be a Good Human at First.  Like a Good Brother, who would try to protect his fellow beings from problems. Like a Good Friend, who would retain his friendship forever. Like a Human Being, who would promote. For being a good human, you ought to be Kind, Matured, Responsible, Adamant and Peaceful.

But ya, after living in and experiencing from The Real World, you oughta be Smart and bit Diplomatic as well. 😉  8)

Life is full of unpredictable obstacles. I dunno and won’t get to know earlier of what I would become either one or many of them, in future. I’m just focusing on my dedication towards my desired interests and thinking of the Current, not much about the Future. And about my future and career, Life would notify me that sooner. Fingers Crossed !!!  😉 😀

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The above Post was for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself…

Pretty-Ugly Truth (Day 4 Of Truth)

The following Post is for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself… and that ultimately leads to happiness.

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Before getting started, I am gonna make things more clear about me.

I would like to tell y’all something. See, I am just a normal artist, not a Professional one. At this beginning stage, I usually refer different art-works from plenty of artists across the globe , for getting some inspiration over there. I try to draw them just to practice and improve my art skills, as I’ve left my art tools a long time ago. But since, I’m back on the track of my hobby, I’m acquiring all the tips and skills, which I’ve learned during my childhood days, practicing during my free times and even bringing something NEW from many artworks whatever I’ve seen in them.

I’d expected that people might already have got me without revealing the above. But still, I’ve mentioned just in case. See Folks, I don’t wanna call myself “An Art Counterfeit” and “An Art Stealer”, stealing arts of any random artist and taking the whole credit. I am just a Newbie as I’ve never professed myself as The Great One, just on a way to be a Professional Artist, without pretending like them. Even I’ve improvised many artworks, taking ideas from there, bring my creativity and concatenating them in a single piece of paper. I BRING IT this way, and eventually…..

This is how my Creativity speaks. 8)

For those criticizers who just still couldn’t understand me so far after this, all you could do always that, just flood my comments box and mail box without which negative and vulgar comments depicts your lame useless perceptions about me, give me threatening messages and try to make me out from here. But guess what, you’re WRONG !! See I don’t give a F*CK what you think about me. Even i don’t expect an apology from you douchebags.

I’ve plenty of people hanging around here in my Yard, who understand me damn well and know what I am. I neither need any fake sympathies and concerns nor harsh and shitty quotes from anybody.

But don’t worry, You’ll get a piece of mine sooner and even better. I Promise, I’ll bring it soon .

In the meantime,
Get a Life, you n00bs 😛

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The above Post was for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself…

I’m Not PERFECT (Day 3 Of Truth)

The following Post is for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself… and that ultimately leads to happiness.

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Sad But True !! I’m NOT really what I wanted to be.

To some extent, I am Multitasking but I’m not Master in everything as even I’m not perfect.

Well, It begins like this, whenever you achieve something in the beginning in any particular field. People really appreciating your triumph and eventually, they start expecting more and more to achieve something BIG and EPIC from yourself. Here’s the FACT: – While admiring on your achievements, people begin to imagine that you’ve become some kinda expert or “Guru” in that field, who could do probably do anything. They Over-rate you sometimes for what you’re doing, just to Brag about their friends’ achievements in front of others. Kinda Weird Thing I suppose !! But that’s TRUE sometimes. 😛

It usually happens with me. Whenever I achieve something in my particular field of interest, whether it was poetry/rapping, mimicry, artwork or computer programming. I’ve got a lot of unexpected compliments from many, in School, in College, in Facebook, and even in my Blog and to whom I really admire for their kind support. But on the contrary, I also have to confront some people sometimes, who would come to you for a while and say something GOOD on your achievement in the meantime. They even would give you a Title as “The Pro”, “The Champ” and “The Stud” in that field. Well at the beginning, it feels GOOD for a time. But later it becomes so annoying that I really get pissed-off when people still calling me so, just for their FUN. And even if you didn’t come to their so-called lame expectations, they demoralize you for that. Now that really Bamboozles me a lot !!

I had certain instances in my Life. But I would tell you about that some another day.

Coming straight back to the point. Neither I want such people who just appreciating me just for namesake, nor such people who even over-rate me and my talent. Expecting a genuine and worthily helpful compliment is something else. It is usually given by those people who really understand you and your level, and admires you for what you’re doing from the starting. They are unlike so-called braggers and over-raters, who just praise you for a while and won’t give a DAMN about what you’re doing later.

However, in a form of feedback, even I don’t give a DAMN what these douchebags have to say about me and my talent. I usually like to focus on my work in a silent environment without any interference or distractions from anybody, and showcase either in my Facebook Profile or mostly in my Blog. Ya, I admit that I publicize my work for promotion, in front of those who genuinely admire it. I honestly don’t expect so much from anybody. But there are some people around me who would really see my work and genuinely appreciate or criticize on it for my sake. For the rest, seriously I don’t give a F*ck about it. 😛

For other guys, I don’t know and even don’t wanna discuss about their talent and skills. But like y’all, I’m not Perfect in any case. I’m just walking on the Road to Perfection and I like this way. I know my potential and sense of satisfaction. I know where I really stand now in my fields of interest. Hopefully, I would seize The Biggest Achievement of my Life in future.

Moreover, won’t that be a FUN, if you struggle for Perfection rather calling yourself or being Perfect every time. Seriously, Being PERFECT is so boring. It DAMN better to make your aims and achievements so higher that you would like to battle for earning it.

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The above Post was for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself…

Farewell (Day 28 of Haiku)

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Ending Journey

Our Journey ends here
but these Rails would be waiting
for New Haiku Trip.

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This Haiku Post is a part of “ The Haiku Challenge “ – A 28 day Haiku Writing Competition,
organized by ‘Someone Is Special’.

Eternity (Day 27 of Haiku)

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Bring back in my Life
with all those Sweet Memories
and stays Forever.

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This Haiku Post is a part of “ The Haiku Challenge “ – A 28 day Haiku Writing Competition,
organized by ‘Someone Is Special’.